Settle .

note : day 29th in KL

dear dude ,
it's almost time to go back .
where i belong .
KK .

i feel like i wanna stay here forever .
haha .
it's fun .

im afraid there's no present this year .
i din get to find good cheap stuff .
only .
russell , marion , nicole , jordan ,
and apparently patrick .
cuz all he ever wanted was chocolate .

next .
i really don't have money .
fucking no money .
i need money
i want money .
gahhhh !

hmm .
nothing really to say actually .
sorry again guys .
ciao !

now and forever

note : day 28th in KL

dear dude ,
i can't help it .
i still believe in fantasy .
i love living in a fantasy .
in fact .
life is a mystery .

im better now ,
brothers do help .
kenneth and francis are the coolest .
i know now ,
the true meaning of
family comes first .

i never knew how life could hurt so badly .
probably cuz' im causin' it to other people .
im growing up to fast .
that's what my brother said .

i found a song that made me relize .
that im living in a dream .
here's the lyrics.

You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far

this song really hits the spot .
no more emo me .
thanks to all who had listen to me .
be there .
when im needed most .
i love you guys .

6 more days !
haha .
i'll be back !
bernard's coming to town !
ciao .

Ever , ever after .

note : 27th day in KL .

dear dude ,
i feel like i wanna change .
change to a new person .
something everyone would not notice .
im not saying im noticed okay .
its just .
i dun like being me anymore .

nothing's worth more dying but your family .
i'm sick of this "so called love" thing .
i had it .
nothing's gonna change now .
not you , not time , not anything .

sometimes ,
i just wanna feel like i wanna scream on top of the world .
i just wanna let go of this .
anger ,
dissapointment ,
and let go of the fact that
there is such thing
as happily ever after in my life .
i envy the Enchanted girl .
i want her life .

it kills me to say this when it's not the right time
but ,
i've been wanting to say it .
" Your the only one that makes my heart beat fast and slow at the same time "
i never would have doubted you .

your a lucky person to have him .
in fact ,
im lucky he has you .
cause' i dun really care no more .
im gonna a change boy when i get back to kk .

knowing what you have said to me
wait for me ? took my pic ? so cute ? imagining stuff ? OUR SONG ?
fuck it .
fuck fuck fucking fuck it .

what im trying to say is .
none of this matter anymore .
i'll just forget you .
forget everything .
cause '
do you even notice me ?
do you even know i exist ?
to me .
your the only one .

and dude .
if your reading this .
dun be guilty .
nor angry
or whatever .
it's the only way i can get angry without my brothers knowing this .

and peeps unfortunately ,
its my last post .
i post new ones when i get the mood back .
christmas ruin .
trip here ruin .
im ruin .

i've bought presents for some poeple only .
sorry ah .
dun really have money already .
after buying one particular present .
not yours russells .
sorry :'(

ciao people .
and i change my number already .
U mobile rocks !

This is the life

note : day 18 in KL

dear blog ,

i'm gonna name you ...

dude .

simple and easy .

no need to think so much .

dear dude ,

i've gone through so many obsticles lately .

for starters .

i fucking fuck up with her

no hope .

then gaduh with francis .

pasal manggo

i have no money .

cuz eat only

i have no nobody else to talk too .

she was there and now no .

i have absolutely no idea what i have to do now .

well the brightest thing i have done

since today and yesterday is ...

Subway .

Damn their sandwiches are damn nice

if KK got .

that place is so my hangout place .

i never thought sandwich would be this nice .

anyway .

back to the start .

i dun have anything .

imma fucking retard .

i hate myself .

i hate when it comes to this .

nothing seems to back me up .

everything is a lie to you .

my promises were never kept .

i never can prove myself to you .

if i could only have a chance .

a chance to take back everything .

i will never forgive myself .

the francis thingi more frustrating.

dude i don't even wanna talk bout it .

i guess im not cut out to be

a friend

a brother

&

a lover

gomenasai :'(

Christmas :)

note : day 14th in kl

dear blog ,
it's finally december .
month of Christmas !
i can never get tired of Christmas .
i love you christmas .

christmas tree me and J decorate :p

Wah .
this month many peoples bday also .
Xavier - 3rd dec
Amos - 5th dec
Nadira - 5th dec
Zeda - 9th dec
Abel - lupa
and many more la .

Ahh ! i got some picture over here :

tuan rumah : my brother

apparently we're sharing this bed
ass-ass with j's camj and francis trying out QQ bear and Xiao mei mei shit :Dwhich got me trying it later HAHAit's mine :)

It's really fun here .
Our only source of entertainment
PS 2 , cyber cafe , sunway pyramid
all of kenneth's friends are really funny .
nanti got gambar that .

just reloaded my phone .
mum and dad worried .
haiz .
miss you guys back in kk .
and you .

aight then .
bye bye blog .
still no name .
see ya :)