bernard's blog la.

ATTENTION

2009-05-11T07:17:00.000-07:00

not using this blog no more.

http://yourheartclosetomine.blogspot.com/

Earth Hour

2009-03-29T06:20:00.000-07:00

first of all Earth Hour Day has to be like the most best day of my life.
first i met the girl i like. love. whatever you call it.
second thanks to SOMEONE we got hated by a church elder dude-like-security.
lastly. i love her.
haha.

sorry not able to write write you blog.
no internet now.
shitz. bill havent pay. now in CYBER. kime. haha. okay. BYE.
vinoun gay.

lalaloveCC ^^

news flash !

2009-03-01T00:49:00.001-08:00

my deepest condolences to Joey.
her mum past away recently.
never really get to say sorry.
sorry for your lost :'(
be strong ! everyone's here for ya !

________________________________________________

right next,
this friday is my MSSG.
now it's gonna be worst.
taller and better people.
wish me luck again peeps.

_________________________________________________

secondly,
everybody is wondering how i celebrate my bday.
not a party.
just a hangout.

___________________________________________________

i think i have a crush on someone.
and
i have a internet girlfriend.
her name's mikwan.
all the way from canada.
the crush punya over here la.

____________________________________________________

current song addict.
pokerface - ladygaga.
haha.
and and and and and and
i hope our bands coming to life !

ciaos !

valentine's day :D

2009-02-15T04:26:00.000-08:00

how did it go dude ?
it went well JUST as i like it to be la.
then i saw one girl from lokyuk.
haha. then i finally saw Daryl and his chick.
haha. they were so sweet. i envy them. nvr really experience those kinda feeling.
oh well :\

im gonna get my medal tomorrow in school.
for high jump.
Jordan,Khairul,Dexter,Cornelius, and more.
are going up to get the medal again from stage.
we are gonna wakil to MSSG.
hmm.
i guess, this is it ? hahaha. oh righty then. goodbye

High Jump 12/02/09

2009-02-13T06:14:00.000-08:00

Effing Happy !
i din get first la but i got second :DDD
true juga the people there tall tall tall.
i was the shortest nih. kime.
biar la !
MSSG !!!!
buahahahaha~

hmm

2009-02-11T05:40:00.000-08:00

okok. tmr im going to wakil school for high jump.
im a bit nervous. cuz im short. i takut ppl jump higher as they are taller. kime.
but ill do my best. hmm.
ill tell the details tmr then.
WISH ME LUCK ! :p

Todaydaydayday

2009-02-08T03:56:00.000-08:00

now you wish met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else.

This verse meant something to me. Hope you guys understand la.
To prove everything that verse says it all.

Im back to band addiction. I just love Myspace. Haha,many bands can be found there man.
Top top now Mayday Parade la.

Im happy dapat wakil lompat tinggi for school. Its so my thing.
Haha. Gonna start training this week. Tee Tee Eff End !

Sports day :)

2009-02-07T01:25:00.000-08:00

today was awesome !

i joined 200m and 800m terbuka. i lost both la. hahaha. i suck. but im gonna wakil MSSD !! lompat tinggi.
nothing ody la. lazy and tired nih. kthanksbai.

Mayday Parade :]

2009-02-03T07:42:00.000-08:00

MAYDAY PARADE

this band keep getting me. I love this band. Their songs are like totally cool. They recently made a new video for " Miserable At Best ".

" Miserable At Best "

this song is the song that i usually hear when im down. Reminds me of everything.
they voice are like totally awesome !

the band :
from left to right :
Jeremy Lenzo - Bass & Vocals
Brook Betts - Guitar
Derek Sanders - Vocals
Alex Garcia - Guitar
Jake Bundrick - Drums & Vocals

okay, i knew they had three vocalists but i seriously did not know
it had the drummer. His so awesome la. They have a lot of sweet songs.
Hear them out ! find them yourself la. Anyways, respect oh ! haha !

what happen today ? well, its okay Lucynda. If thats what you want me
to say. Im cool with it. So got sports today. Im ran 200m yesterday and 4x400m today.
200m i got second & 4x400m surprisingly we won. haha. Jordan harapan. Yes THE JORDAN. White boy.
James ran too. Panic kunun dia. Haha. On sports day my events are 100m,200m,4x100m,4x400m.
though i follow this, i still tia puas ati with the high jump.
sayang btl oh. dissapointing. shit. Haha !
mau set cewe nih. JOSHUA PUNYA NEIGHBOUR. Haha.

Guys gotta sleep now. its 12.00pm. Mum marah marah this :p
aight, adios !

02.02.09

2009-02-02T05:26:00.000-08:00

ok what happen today. Well, basically got sport in school today. Din do anything during lesson. my acara 100m / 200m / 400m / 4x100m / 4x400m. I cant run FAST at all. the teacher put me in these. the acara i paling want tia kena dapat and thats high jump. how fucked up is that ? SALAH tulis nama lagi tu. Kalah this my rumah sukan again this year. nvm. but but, one thing i really hate kan is if a person i LEFT already still wanna talk bout me. if YOU have a new boyfriend. WHY do YOU have to mention me ? cant YOU just be happy with the new him which is ALSO my friend. I dun care about it. CANT we just be normal people and forget last time punya thing ? punyala YOUR still young bha. so am i. IF your sooooo deeply in love with him why mention me time to time ? im happy bha for YOU getting a guy better than me. I know im not the GUY. SO what ? say la what you want. talk bad la bout me. i dun care anymore. tell la all your friends what a person i am. tell la. bagitau boy ko la. NOT intimidated. AT ALL. ANYYYWAYSSS,, i hurt my ankle again. fcuk. something wrong with my ankle oh shit. dun really have mood now. But, ok la. bye bye bye bye byebye~

Gong Xi Fa Chai !

2009-01-31T03:42:00.000-08:00

this week has to be the craziest week in my whole entire life. It's so awesome that it's awesome. okay,let's start from 24th of Jan till 31th Jan. I'll make a summary lah, kinda lazy to type long long.

KK -> Nabalu(pekan) -> Ranau -> Lahad Datu -> Tawau

so on the first day, we pack la. banyak baju i pack cuz we're practically gonna stay in a jungle. so our first stop was at pekan nabalu. daddy wanna minum kopi cuz penat ody drive drive us. so on the way i sms Audrey and i counted cows and dogs. really bored la. then dekat national park ody i buka the cermin and main with the fog. YES thats how bored i am. so then reach Ranau. meet my uncle and aunties and my 14 and 16 year old nephews. they have a kebun up ahead. thats our first destination. stayed there bout 3 days. mandi air perigi. main sejuk. got judi la of cuz. at FIRST a lost banyak banyak. then i win 45 bucks. hell yeah. then then then, got so many nyamuk gigit me, bee's stung me pun banyak. its a kebun, what did you expect ? haha. then after that we go to lahad datu to minum minum with uncle john and aunt lucy and family. took us bout 6 hours to get to tawau. 6 HOURS ! in the car sleep and eat and sleep. hmm, din receive a lot of angpau but i love tawau ! i get to meet my baby nephew CYRUS !! he is such a adorable baby. cute lagi tu ! damn. i miss tawau damn much. but anyway thats my hols suck ? nah.. too bad.. i HEARD stories ody. hahaha. aight ! ciao people~

TO JAMES =]

2009-01-19T04:52:00.000-08:00

my new bf !

crapcrapcrapcrab :]] ya bha james !!

muahxXx ( superduperkawaiishitimnotusetothiswhyamitypeingthislol)

it starts with...

2009-01-19T04:33:00.000-08:00

what i did these past few days...
hmm...
yesterday i went to 1B with james,jared and francis,
and priste ?
anyways...first place i went was the ARCADE !!
it was fun like hell !
we played the PUNCHER... using our head,leg and everything la...
got rules again one you know ?
first must punch normally,then run from far far then left hand...
or kick or use our head.
francis used the glove to hit the thingi...

but before that during sunday school... i met LUCYNDA JOEY
haha... i practically chat with less than a minute...
but when i came back from 1B we chat somemore...
THEN~ i was bored... and added two gay dudes... COUPLE tu...
they were seriously gay...
if you wanna chat with them... i give the email la...
whywouldyouguyswanttohavetheemailgaykha?

then comes TODAY...
stayed back wanted to join the olahraga thingi but tia jadi...
i lambat cuz i played FOOTBALL.
fun jugala
then then then i went to see my kawan gaduh...
lawak this...
he went like this

seanricko / senando ?

" ui,kaukah cari kawan saya ? "

" tidak,napa ? "

"jadi kau cari seanricko ka ? Saya bha Seanricko... itu dane "

trus teteda ni... haha... introduction yg proper ikut skemah bha...
bha okaylah..
i wanna sleep already...
nite dudes !

mummy,can i fight ?

2009-01-13T06:06:00.000-08:00

dear blog,

first of all,i feel piss when that asshole talk bout her. Feel like i wanna punch him.
Tia puas ati ka ?!
that motherfucker's a coward.

Anyways, nothing really much happen today. Besides going tuition and negotiating with Joshua.
Im kinda happy that sports day draws near. And sukantara.
A lot of sports i join this year. Pmr again that.
Hopefully mummy allow.

This is pretty much it i guess.

goodbye :)

Rain | :) or ): |

2009-01-11T03:58:00.000-08:00

Dear blog,

Nothing much happen today, suppose to play basketball with Gavin but... it didn't happen huh ?
guess why ? RAIN. Why must it always rain nowadays ? I cant go do sports which is so boring. I got stuck with Soccermanager.com only. But but ! Suprisingly my brother came back from Singapore ! So happy to see him after like what... 2 years ? Sad thing was he going back today. What the hell ?

Anyways, back to rain. It's gonna ruin sports training. Can't train for basketball,handball,football and 100m those shits la. The school's field gonna be a swimming pool... again. Wait wait, my brother bought me this new earphones. They're so awesome. They got name again. Left and Right. He yang say la.

Rain again, besides ruining training, i can't watch tv. Lag la can say. Stupid boring fuck. Oh oh, this morning in sunday school was KINDA fun. Before class start la. Patrick,Cornelius,James,Malcolm,Bryan, and I went from class to class. People were like... who are there ?

Back to rain, sometimes raining wheater could be nice. It gives this cool and nice feeling. And i got my new Godfather... Patrick's dad. We're family.

Still, RAIN GO AWAY UNTIL 7 FEBRUARY

* Breaking News*

1 . Not gonna celebrate my bday party this year again. Sad kan ? nvm la.
2. Gonna start working out in gym.

damn...

2009-01-10T03:15:00.000-08:00

i did lot of stuff's today .
early early morning i chat with zeda's lil sis "lola" .
then i francis wanted to play badminton suddenly .
so we went to sutera harbour la .
we played badminton , went swimming and ate .
_____________________________________

>BADMINTON<

KLASSEN,bernard v.s KLASSEN,francis

first game : 23 - 21 / 19 - 21 / 21 - 16
second game : 15 - 21 / 21 - 19 / 18 - 21
third game : 26 - 24 / 21 - 14
_____________________________________

>SWIMMING<

me and francis went to the 1.5m pool la .
then we saw this hot girl .
orang putih lagi tu .
this was our convo...

bernard : fat ! look over there *pointing* she looks hot .
francis : wtf . i know shit
*she pusing*
bernard : gila ! main hot .
francis : she's mine .
bernard : fuck you la ! haha . she's so mine .
francis : damn you la mekh !
*she saw us* *we both buka baju that time ngam ngam look at her*
bernard : she smiled at me .
francis : ME LA !

haha .
budu la that story .
and then at night i went to eat at a baba nyonya food
then i cerita my mum and dad pasal that girl .
haha my dad ask me how old is she .
i say i dunno .
he trus reply ...
... 7 ?
haha . budu la today .
neways .

bye again !

School school :D

2009-01-05T05:39:00.000-08:00

i manage to dye my hair black. Nearly forgot. It looks blue though. Darkish blue black.

Well first day of school was kinda cool. Get to meet my friends back.
Shitty thing was, they exchange the malay canteen. The food sucks now.
And i lost 5 bucks. Stupid punya Roslim. F*cking Sohai !
I gave russell his specs ody. Left jordan's present and patrick's and zeda's and nicole's and marion's.

But everything went well. Despite losing my 5 bucks.
I clean my study table also. Stick the timetable on my table.

Things i notice when i came back :

jordan got taller
russell got bald again
patrick got weirder in a good way
joshua got thinner
darryl remember to pinch my nose ( and i don't know why )
izzal gave a me a gift from jakarta
abraham got fatter
no more prasad
james didn't cut hair
daryl got whiter

They look the same la. But A Year OLDER !
Well that's that.
ciao peeps :D

hapaayyy neeww yeeaarrr !!!

2009-01-01T04:35:00.000-08:00

happy new year friends ! Okay, just wanna update what happen before 2009.

Last day in KL [ 31.12.08]

12.00am : Kenneth's friends,Francis,Kenneth and i went to play midnight futsal as usual.
2.00am : Finish futsal then went straight to a mamak stall to chill. Played friends' PSP.
3.30am : Went to cyber. Played some online games. Check the usual stuffs (facebook,etc)
6.00am : Pack clothes,arrange everything to get ready for KK,
7.20am : Accidentally slept ! (not suppose to,flight back to KK 11.10am)
9.40am : Woke up. Hasten things up. Got ready.
10.00am : Waited for taxi .
10.20am : Put bags in taxi and ciao.
10.50am : Francis and i ran to find the Check-In counter.
10.58am : Then we found the counter !
11.00am : Too Late ! Rejected !
11.10am : Heard our plane going away.
11.30am : Told Kenneth we miss our flight.
1.00pm : Kenneth skipped work to see us (aww)
1.30pm : Booked a flight in the Airport on 5.10pm
2.00pm : Bought a ticket on the spot.
2.30pm : Chill at McD.
3.00pm : Kenneth left. Boss scold him.
3.15pm : Francis and i took a trolley.
3.30pm : Check-In !
3.40pm : Played the trolley. Francis push push me.
3.50pm : Francis's turn. I push push him. Almost bang a human.
4.15pm : Finding AIR-CON. Damn hot.
4.30pm : Found a place. In the departure lounge
5.10pm : KK. Here we come.
7.50pm : KK la.
8.00pm : Eat ! Seafood ! FINALLY !
10.40pm : Got home. Bath. Got ready again.
11.30pm : Sutera for new year
12.00pm : HAPPY NEW YEAR.

that's basically what i did till New Year. I drank like WINE the whole time during New Year. Red & White Wine.
Delicious. Haha. Awesomely,it turned out all right.

Hehe. HAPPY NEW YEAR peeps :)

Settle .

2008-12-18T10:27:00.000-08:00

note : day 29th in KL

dear dude ,
it's almost time to go back .
where i belong .
KK .

i feel like i wanna stay here forever .
haha .
it's fun .

im afraid there's no present this year .
i din get to find good cheap stuff .
only .
russell , marion , nicole , jordan ,
and apparently patrick .
cuz all he ever wanted was chocolate .

next .
i really don't have money .
fucking no money .
i need money
i want money .
gahhhh !

hmm .
nothing really to say actually .
sorry again guys .
ciao !

now and forever

2008-12-16T08:41:00.000-08:00

note : day 28th in KL

dear dude ,
i can't help it .
i still believe in fantasy .
i love living in a fantasy .
in fact .
life is a mystery .

im better now ,
brothers do help .
kenneth and francis are the coolest .
i know now ,
the true meaning of
family comes first .

i never knew how life could hurt so badly .
probably cuz' im causin' it to other people .
im growing up to fast .
that's what my brother said .

i found a song that made me relize .
that im living in a dream .
here's the lyrics.

You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far

this song really hits the spot .
no more emo me .
thanks to all who had listen to me .
be there .
when im needed most .
i love you guys .

6 more days !
haha .
i'll be back !
bernard's coming to town !
ciao .

Ever , ever after .

2008-12-15T00:48:00.001-08:00

note : 27th day in KL .

dear dude ,
i feel like i wanna change .
change to a new person .
something everyone would not notice .
im not saying im noticed okay .
its just .
i dun like being me anymore .

nothing's worth more dying but your family .
i'm sick of this "so called love" thing .
i had it .
nothing's gonna change now .
not you , not time , not anything .

sometimes ,
i just wanna feel like i wanna scream on top of the world .
i just wanna let go of this .
anger ,
dissapointment ,
and let go of the fact that
there is such thing
as happily ever after in my life .
i envy the Enchanted girl .
i want her life .

it kills me to say this when it's not the right time
but ,
i've been wanting to say it .
" Your the only one that makes my heart beat fast and slow at the same time "
i never would have doubted you .

your a lucky person to have him .
in fact ,
im lucky he has you .
cause' i dun really care no more .
im gonna a change boy when i get back to kk .

knowing what you have said to me
wait for me ? took my pic ? so cute ? imagining stuff ? OUR SONG ?
fuck it .
fuck fuck fucking fuck it .

what im trying to say is .
none of this matter anymore .
i'll just forget you .
forget everything .
cause '
do you even notice me ?
do you even know i exist ?
to me .
your the only one .

and dude .
if your reading this .
dun be guilty .
nor angry
or whatever .
it's the only way i can get angry without my brothers knowing this .

and peeps unfortunately ,
its my last post .
i post new ones when i get the mood back .
christmas ruin .
trip here ruin .
im ruin .

i've bought presents for some poeple only .
sorry ah .
dun really have money already .
after buying one particular present .
not yours russells .
sorry :'(

ciao people .
and i change my number already .
U mobile rocks !

This is the life

2008-12-07T05:11:00.000-08:00

note : day 18 in KL

dear blog ,

i'm gonna name you ...

dude .

simple and easy .

no need to think so much .

dear dude ,

i've gone through so many obsticles lately .

for starters .

i fucking fuck up with her

no hope .

then gaduh with francis .

pasal manggo

i have no money .

cuz eat only

i have no nobody else to talk too .

she was there and now no .

i have absolutely no idea what i have to do now .

well the brightest thing i have done

since today and yesterday is ...

Subway .

Damn their sandwiches are damn nice

if KK got .

that place is so my hangout place .

i never thought sandwich would be this nice .

anyway .

back to the start .

i dun have anything .

imma fucking retard .

i hate myself .

i hate when it comes to this .

nothing seems to back me up .

everything is a lie to you .

my promises were never kept .

i never can prove myself to you .

if i could only have a chance .

a chance to take back everything .

i will never forgive myself .

the francis thingi more frustrating.

dude i don't even wanna talk bout it .

i guess im not cut out to be

a friend

a brother

a lover

gomenasai :'(

Christmas :)

2008-12-03T12:06:00.000-08:00

note : day 14th in kl

dear blog ,
it's finally december .
month of Christmas !
i can never get tired of Christmas .
i love you christmas .

christmas tree me and J decorate :p

Wah .
this month many peoples bday also .
Xavier - 3rd dec
Amos - 5th dec
Nadira - 5th dec
Zeda - 9th dec
Abel - lupa
and many more la .

Ahh ! i got some picture over here :

tuan rumah : my brother

apparently we're sharing this bed
ass-ass with j's cam j and francis trying out QQ bear and Xiao mei mei shit :D which got me trying it later HAHA it's mine :)

It's really fun here .
Our only source of entertainment
PS 2 , cyber cafe , sunway pyramid
all of kenneth's friends are really funny .
nanti got gambar that .

just reloaded my phone .
mum and dad worried .
haiz .
miss you guys back in kk .
and you .

aight then .
bye bye blog .
still no name .
see ya :)

thus , i did it again .

2008-11-27T12:44:00.000-08:00

note : day 9 in kl .

dear blog,
have you guys ever miss someone so much it stings ?
well i have .
knowing it's so sucky to be here sometimes .

bought one present only .
haha .
you guys have to wait :p

Twilight is so fun .
not to mention its funny and romantic .
haha .
got one guy in the cinema shout " GILA SHAKING SAYA "
haha .
everybody laugh !
:)))

I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
i'ts time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true

this is me to her .
damn fucking boring right ?

anyways .
i got back with pat .
i got gaduh gaduh with him again .
ASK HIM

well ,
time to go blog .
wait .
i wanna name you blog .
any ideas ?
(help me people !)
:p

aight ! ciao people. :))

Hey hey :)

2008-11-20T11:26:00.000-08:00

dear blog,
well , im in KL now .
Lots of things to do .
miss her lots too .
wish she could be here now .

&&
i dyed my hair red-ish brown .
hahaha .
i got a pic fer ya !

nice bha kan ?
francis is the one who dyed my hair .
can see ? :p
when i get back then see la .

many things happen la .
many story story .
i'll update soon .
did'nt know got time also to go cyber :)
aight .

goodbye now :D
imissyou

Goodbye :)

2008-11-18T18:44:00.000-08:00

dear blog ,
im leaving kk soon .
reaching KL bout 6 something .

Gonna miss you guys .
and you .
havent dyed my hair yet .
still looks like shit >:(

its early in the morning .
i wonder if she's asleep .
well ,
all i can say is .
best of luck in future .

sorry cant go out with you guys :(
time to say .

good bye friends :)

Chase Coy

2008-11-18T05:58:00.000-08:00

hello :))
today i think would be the last time i blog this month . cause' im going to KL ! woo~!

so how was my day ? it was great not sure why
but she made my day brighter .
seems like it's always her .
i got back stab by the most dearest friend of mine .
maybe he wants it to be that way .
maybe he feels it's not the right time .
whatever it is .
i'll pretend nothing .
nothing happen at all .

days like this just makes me miss you more .
when everything was easy .
i just want them back .
but you can't re-live the past .
i will never have them back again .
but im alright with that .

Chase Coy is the most awesome singer in the world .
you people should check him out .
his also known as dear juliet .
yes i mention this him earlier .
all his song's are sweet and sentimental .
you know ,
just like when you saw a cute baby .
brings back memories .

I cut my hair today .
i look kinda cinabeng-ish now .
but hey , who cares ?
>:p
(wish i had a picture)

ijustlikechangingcolours
itsfuntodothis

Im all pack now .
getting ready to leave kk .
gonna miss all my friends .
especially pat,russ,bram,daryl, and gang .
more importantly .
[[her]]

well

time

go now
adios amigo's :]

My American Heart

2008-11-17T05:17:00.000-08:00

Welcome me :)

okay its my first time so i don't really know what to say nor do .
but it looks cool so , i made it .
my friends do this , i don't really know what's the fun of it .

I heard this new cool band "My American Heart" .
the song's are kinda cool .
haven't heard all yet .

Today didn't really do anything fun .
just stayed at home .
online the whole day .
then do nothing .

Some f*cktard keeps on signing in my msn . >:p

Chat with Marion today .
She insist the saltwater room - owl city
have drugged her .
not until she heard summer's song - dear juliet .
hehe :))
had fun chatting her though .

Gonna leave to KL soon .
this wednesday . 19/11/08
not sure can blog there or not .
don't know got time or not .

*REMINDER*
things to do in KL

buy new slacks .
buy new jeans .
buy new shirts .
buy new shoes .
buy christmas present for friends and family .

p/s : who wants presents tell me =p

okay its been fun .
really got nothing to say now .
haha :DD

sayonara peeps :]